"this is life"

我总是为这么豁达的答案感到震憾。

一个面对天时条件很坏的农夫，克服一切耕田去，只为了三餐暖肚，微笑着说，这就是生活。
一个天生残缺的人，挣扎着，习惯着，只为了多呼吸一口空气，只为了跟家人多相聚一刻，只为了多做一件事，微笑着说，这就是生活。
一个在爱情里被背叛的人，放开了感情，心还是伤的，依然成全对方的自由，微笑着说，这就是生活。

不是盲目，不是自暴自弃，没有泄气放弃。
还是充满热忱，还是抱着希望，继续憧憬。

一起加油吧。相信我，如果可以的话，我绝对想在你最需要我的时候，给你一个深深的拥抱。我知道，你也会尽力在我最需要你的时候，不让我失望。

here i am...

after doc, after medicine, tummy-full, drowning into the drowsy mood, working on tasks based on priority, at times think logically for scheduling & invoicing, or sentimentally for b's love story (yes, i can't imagine writing one myself), creativity & sense of humour needed on the other hand for commercialize live show script (not that the emcees will read anyway), and a whole load of other things going on in my mind.

mum says she's going to buy a new apartment with aunt Christine, yumi says tmr i'll be on d road, david says he needs to collect material from saatchi, doc says more rest & sleep, raz says treatment sucks, hui ee says some replacements needed during mall tour, baby sis says don't cough at public, vincent says get well soon, nit says she's leaving to macau soon, i got a miss-call from her and no reply when i called back (at Dubai transit?), didi says let's grab a bite, client says emotional is the right tune, b says the ending of the story is bad (i don't even have feelings for the whole story, to be frank), mr.tan says culture must be preserved regardless by locals or foreigners, what's the influenza update?, the sun is too hot, the chang family has a conflict between one child or two children, raymond says just consider other radio station and he'll help out, listener says bad reception at penang, ZY says bad reception at south, the 15y/o girl was not too excited for the free CD, awaiting for client's final preview at 6p.m., danny says the quail is good, weather is bad, more clients with more opinions, temple's new management... ...

and i just spent my last drop of strength for the launch video's preview.
now,
fade to black.

influenza outbreak getting closer and closer?

my primary school is really famous now! not the way it should be though. hopefully the students will recover soon and the rest will be tested negative. they are too young to suffer.

鼓宴：Hands Drumming Festival 2009 - Kaleidoscope

i have been wanting to join the workshop, but my schedule never allowed. luckily, i still managed to catch the last performance with my sister, right before she started school on Monday, consider quite a nice closure for her school holiday, i supposed.

the show opened with MOKABA Arts Group, founded by Kamrul Hussin, with popular repertoire originated from Kelantan, mainly performing some traditional drumming art forms.

and the rest of the highlights are DeafBeat YMCA, Wadaiko Syo and Hands Gamelan. i enjoyed the show very much as i always like percussion performance. i can still recall the most expensive one that i watched was STOMP, and also some other Hands performance at Bangsar Actor Studio.

the other best thing of the night was that i bumped into BCBL, if u know who i mean. she was with two other friends, and our conversation revolved around the who-is-busier topic.

we then went home and had a good sleep. and i thought, the last time i was at KLPac was last year... before the car accident, where i was there alone watching some German films in the Indicine, sitting by the lake, and wrote a letter to her.

introducing this new voice...

Zee Avi is her name and you can listen to her new song, Bitter Sweet on Fly FM, or listen to her online, or even buy her CD.

今天，

我听她唱歌。

感觉很好。

so i attended Fish Leong's concert

诚意之作，绝对可以想像DVD将会很好看。凯旋归来似的演唱会，she deserves the crowd and cheers。可惜，我一开始的迟到就注定我不会享受这场演唱会。

原谅我的心情不好，让我只是把自己投入在工作。研究舞台设计、循序铺陈、台灯声、制作、音乐。。。也许不是她的粉丝，好像出席交流会。不过，我必须承认，这是一场绝对诚意之作！坦白说，以她的声线，在我的看法里，还不及天后级，所以肯定不会很精彩。因为她都不是表演型的。。。可是制作单位花了许多心思去策划，用很多其他的元素补上不足，而且给予静茹在演唱会尾声非常大的自由发挥空间。我可以看见流露出非常自然一面的她，深深被她简单的幸福感动。所谓简单的幸福就是她的热忱、她的真、她的惜福、她的态度。

昨晚在她的歌声陪衬下（一开场的时候，我真的没办法投入），我想了很多关于广播工作和感情的事。我甚至禁不住想问，如果我连跟同事之间的关系都搞不好，那么我还可能走进人群吗？这样的环境下，我还能够一如往常地，用自己一贯的方式过自己的生活，打理自己的事情吗？我没有答案。我想，我不想承认自己就想继续这样的决定。既然不能勉强，我也不强求了。可能我还不够努力，但我想我需要一点鼓励，或者在等待鼓励来临前，稍微休息。专心工作吧。否则下星期再次出错，我想年尾约满后，我都没有公司值得把我留下的理由。

听情歌自然想起感情事。可悲的是，我什么都没想到。只想到自己对她一大堆朗朗上口的情歌都无动于衷。

很开心她加插的一段唱别人的歌的部分，很棒！不过，像‘多得他’这类歌，恕我直言，她carry不到。声音还欠缺点力度吧，在重乐器下，还是unplugged比较好。和音超班的次数还不少，我听不出是engineer的问题还是其他。

一整夜赶工，为的是钱吧？趁待会儿要去上班前，小睡一会儿吧。星期天的上午，无论你在做什么，都祝你有愉快的一天。昨晚其中想听到的，只有这首没有听到：

接受

彷彿上一分钟　你还陪在我左右　
还以为我们会开花结果
我还记得玫瑰色天空　
却模糊了我们的脸孔　
哼过的歌到底是什么内容

＊彷彿已经自由　下一刻我变成风　
吹过你的领空　差点失控
　回忆在夜里闹得很凶　我想我可以明白你所有的痛
　想让你知道我懂　却担心言不由衷

＃我们都接受　一定是彼此不够成熟　
在爱情里分不了轻重
　诚实得过了头　不能退后也无法向前走
　爱是一个自私的念头　把寂寞消除的理由
　剩下的那些感动　能记得多久

周末的音乐饷宴

无论我再喜欢王若琳，我也没想过去听她的签唱会。但是，paneling练习后，同事给我电话，说是留了位子。很好，他们很少记得我。我也觉得，偷得浮生。。。

结果，没有听到我想听的，不过，还好有adult crap。她唱‘玫瑰玫瑰我爱你’的时候，跟随音乐摆动着身体，很可爱，是惊喜。

但是，如果有机会的话，我想告诉JOANNA，她的演唱，应该要在灯光更好、情调更好以及有卖酒的地方进行，那样才是享受。

隔天，我很有耳福。听到mr.gambus/farid ali& band一个set的演唱。很棒。朋友把我sell成当红dj，他送了张cd给我，他的第二张音乐专辑，我兴奋地讨了签名。一个追逐着音乐梦的男人，还有非常支持他的太太。。。我们聊了一阵子，竟然被我俗气的身份带入了现实的话题。。。真不好意思。原本还以为可以趁机会，上一堂音乐课。


反而，我想像，他们的音乐应该在一大片土地上，无拘无束的感觉。恰恰和王若琳走错了地方？呵。

i'm not being racist, but...

more China Universities will get recognition and even some uni-branches here soon, yet UEC still unrecognized?

i wonder who are the students from Malaysia who will go study at China? are u suggesting non-independent high school (a.k.a. private school) students? i doubt so!

oh ya, and i hate him for saying, now that i gave u the land, please figure out the way to build school on it. One Malaysia but multiple standards? yes, Chinese community is always good in raising funds. i never doubt that. maybe too good.

alrite, that's it. more words will get me to the ISA perhaps.