first of December 2008

still, the only good news left is your birthday. i mean, i can't imagine u didn't come to the world 27 years ago and met me 8 years ago. or i'll be breaking into pieces already by now.

the bad news are lining-up as usual...
L is still in despair.
AW is torn.
LJ is... nothing better.
then i heard, SN is not cooping well with some matters.
and i didn't hear from CL yet, so i supposed nothing good cross the way.
as for myself, i got a call during dinner. J said it all, no game for me this round, too. well, at least it didn't take long, to prove me that i have no talent in this. time to give up.

anyway, i got the so called compensation from the-J-boss today, he also treated us nice buffet lunch. but i felt so weird. i don't even have the appetite for whatever sushi & sashimi. i was just 'indulging' because i think i should be playing that role. anyway, he has been a nice boss and i do look forward to work with him again. and the money is just in time for me to give it to mum as her birthday present.

lately, keeping myself in the water seems to be the only way to pull myself together. whenever i'm away, i get back to that drowning-into-nowhere mode. but its okay! at least i'm befriending books and movies, some music. i shall also write and write too, like i have no tomorrow to write.