Monday, March 31, 2008

328

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

Sunday, March 30, 2008

327

你说你说我们要不要在一起
柔情的日子里
生活的不费力气
傻傻看你
只要和你在一起
我说我说我要我们在一起
爱你不费力气
不像现在只能遥远的唱着你

326

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

325

你让我的懂事 变成一种幼稚 
你让我的骄傲 觉得很无知
你让我的朋友 关心我的生活 

离开我 你会不会好一点 
离开你 什么事都难一点
车来了 坐上你的明天 车走了 我还站在路边

离开我 你会不会好一点 
离开你 什么事都难一点
风来了 云就会少一点 你走了 我住在雨里面

324

头沾湿无可避免
伦敦总依恋雨点
乘早机忍耐着呵欠
完全为见你一面

寻得到尘封小店
回不到相恋那天
灵气大概早被污染
谁为了生活不变

越渴望见面然后发现
中间隔着那十年
我想见的笑脸只有怀念
不懂怎去再聊天
像我在往日还未抽烟
不知你怎么变迁

323

最好 有生一日都爱下去
但谁人 能将恋爱当做终生兴趣
生活 其实旨在找到个伴侶
面对现实 热恋很快变长流细水
可惜我 不智或侥倖 对火花天生敏感
不过 两只手拉的太紧
爱到过了界那对爱人
同时亦最易变成一对敌人

也许相爱很难 就难在其实双方各有各寄望 怎么办
要单恋都难 受太大的礼会內疚却也无力归还
也许不爱不难 但如未成佛成仙也会怕爱情前途暗淡
爱不爱都难 未快乐先有责任给予对方面露欢颜
得到浪漫 又要有空间
得到定局 却怕去到终站
然后付出的多得到少不介意豁达 又担心有人看不过眼

无论热恋中失恋中都永远记住第一戒 別要张开双眼

Friday, March 21, 2008

322

那天晚上
望着海洋
想了很久
才想清楚
是我不安
是我无法摆脱寂寞

放下自己
忘了失去
我不再是
你的唯一
一片寂静
只剩下海潮的声音

明明不在
我学会忍耐
一个人我应该
需要你
又逃不开
让脑袋游在
充满你模糊的
想象里

明明不在
我学会忍耐
一个人曾想过
放弃
都明明需要你
却还犹豫不定

321

我只能低着头发呆
让回忆渗透脑袋渐渐变空白

我把它当做个意外
但内心还想不开
因为我明白其实你都还在

越是没用力越是心痛
我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都交给我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候

320

你在天空飞翔

我在地面游荡

看似两个地方

其实都是一样

Saturday, March 15, 2008

i was so silly

i thought it ended, i didn't know the worst is yet to be here to surprise me.

从来不喜欢她,却爱上她这首带点陈绮贞感觉的新歌

王宛之 - 怎么会寂寞

飞机一落地
与你零距离
这颗心不再相距
说好一分离
心情没力气
激情却之剩消极
我太渴望你的依偎
你给我的机会
好象永远都不对味
那是谁的不对
我继续又憔悴
心碎你也无所谓
爱情自己收回别太自以为
你不过只是
其中讨厌的一个
让我彻底崩溃忘了啥是对
寂寞空空的
在心里作祟
再一个人万岁
只不过自我陶醉
忘了我是谁
给自己安慰怎么会寂寞怎么会

分离我情意
脱离离开你
也不过是刚好而已
飞机一落地
明明没距离
我们从此不再相聚
我太渴望你的依偎
你给我的机会
好象永远都不对味
那是谁的不对

我继续又憔悴
心碎你也无所谓
爱情自己收回别太自以为
你不过只是
其中讨厌的一个
让我彻底崩溃忘了啥是对
寂寞空空的
在心里作祟
再一个人万岁
只不过自我陶醉
忘了我是谁
给自己安慰怎么会寂寞怎么会

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也许我真的有点分裂

不堪一击篇之无病呻吟:

从发烧以来,就不断有坏消息来袭,真的很吃不消。发烧、喉咙发炎、失声、严重咳嗽、没有休息的机会、没有撒娇的对象、被迫取消旅行计划、工作包不见、节目要部分重拍、手指头细菌感染导致整根手指肿胀。。。我希望接下来是个句号。

怎么会这么倒霉?怎么都要在短短的一个月内发生?到今天为止,我的声音还是没有完全康复,怎么这样?

顺其自然篇之芝麻绿豆:

最近的确是祸不单行,造成了生活上的种种不便。当然,心情也受了影响。我更必须要承认的是,这也影响了我的工作效率。不太专业,真的,把私人的情绪都混进工作里头。幸好,生病的时候,有妈妈照顾我,至少我觉得自己是被重视的。

现在正逐一收拾着烂摊子,突如其来的不便虽然有给我麻烦,但是总不能过着无风无浪的生活。再说,这些还根本不是什么风浪,只是一些小不如意。i'm just acting like a baby. 站起来,自己面对,我知道。小事情,不是什么世界末日,不需要无病呻吟!

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Thursday, March 13, 2008

LOST。HILANG。不见

我的公事包包昨天不见了!天啊!还我资料!都是不值钱的东西,拜托你行行好,还给我吧!

LOCATION: BANGI-PUTRAJAYA EQUATORIAL

TIME & DATE: AFTER 1700, 12MARCH2008

LOST ITEMS:

1 YUMMY TRAIL BOTH SEASONS, SCHEDULE & CONTACTS

2 HEART TO HEART SEASON I, EVERYTHING

3 YUMMY TRAIL, SMS VOUCHERS FOR EPS 12 & EPS 16

4 YUMMY TRAIL DVD COPIES FOR RESTAURANT OWNERS, EPS 8 & EPS10

5 FOSSIL'S REPAIR RECEIPT (MY MUM'S WATCH)

6 TOUCH 'N GO (JUST RELOADED)

7 MAGAZINE (THE OFF-EDGE WITH MAYA KARIN AS COVER)

8 MY BELOVED STATIONERY BAG (SINCE FORM 2) WITH ALL MY BELOVED STATIONERIES

9 MY HOUSE KEYS!!!

10 WET TISSUE

11 THUMB DRIVE

12 A WORKING NOTE BOOK WITH EVERYTHING...

我还在想着还有些什么。。。我真的很泄气!

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Sunday, March 09, 2008

DEAR SEE NIT, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! WE LOVE U!






~cake complimentary from Edo Jo's Subreena **

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投票记

没想到第一次投票就遇上战情这么激烈的选战;在等待成绩的时候,也就是反对党拿下槟城过后,我恨不得自己回到当新闻界的一份子,实在想念做新闻的日子。

反对党拿下5个州,欣喜若狂,情绪高涨。谣言满天飞,说会有游行之类的,要大家最好不要出门。国阵有人放话,说会反击。没有2/3大多数票的新政府,倒还是同一个执政党。这一切都是这么的突然。

选党不选人的理念,这次似乎是推到了很好的成绩,大家都不要谁赢得太漂亮和输得太难看。其实,我也是这种观念的人。我第一次投票,所投的一票就中选了,不禁有点小开心。不过,中选者是否会履行责任,还是未知数。

这次的大选热应该不会这么快退烧,还有很多善后和新政府的一切;非常期待。我倒想看看到底油价还会不会高涨,4月份有没有哪个党进行补选,年尾的预算案又有没有糖果派到我手里来。拭目以待吧!

不过,目前为止,我还是那句:请把选举留下来的垃圾清理好,无论你输了或赢了都不应该影响市容。谢谢!

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Saturday, March 08, 2008

i need to depend on something...

...and the only choice i left is MY BED...

i just bought a new bed, double decker, for myself and my sister before CNY2008. sadly, i haven't really got the time to 'feel' the bed as i only go home to sleep like i've fainted.

i'm not complaining as i'm not as busy as the big people, but i guess not having a proper rest even i got fever etc has came to my bottom line... i fell sick last week during shoot and that followed with post session which i could only get home by midnight. and bla bla bla until today.

whatever, now that it happened, i just want to depend on someone, who is currently not available... so i was left with no choice, i picked my bed. i thought i want to wake up in the morning with my biological call, then only i realized, i was awaken by a working call. sigh...

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Tuesday, March 04, 2008

The Crippled Butterfly

"A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day, a small opening appeared; he sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could and it could go no farther.

Then the man decided to help the butterfly, so he took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon. The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings.

The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time.

Neither happened. In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly.

What the man in his kindness and haste did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were nature's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon.

Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If nature allowed us to go through our life without any obstacles, it would cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been.

And we could never fly.
"

~ abstract from THE STORYTELLER.

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失声记

也忘了自己病了多久,大概是1星期吧?病情演变到昨天的声音超级沙哑,到今天令我有机会上演一场失声记。

由于工作性质的关系,我被逼要跟很多人交谈,再加上是拍摄的季节,我要说的比平时更多了。很辛苦吗?不能说话,其实不是辛苦,而是不方便。反而是咳嗽咳得很要命的时候,我才觉得辛苦。就像今早开车的时候,我真的是一边开车,一边咳嗽,没办法停止和控制地咳嗽,眼泪开始不断地在流,完全不在我的掌控中,好可怕。这是继上一次,也没有1个月前的咳嗽,第二度经历。

朋友说,干嘛要这样累坏自己,牺牲了健康,什么都不值得。的确。今天,我是应该在澳门享受着我的双皮奶,还有葡式大餐。但是,这并不是我预计之中的,档期变了,节目正在播放,我可以怎样?制作节目,从来不是一个人的事,一个人不行,大家都要迁就。我比较不甘心的是老板没有赔钱给我。

我真的没有很忙很忙,只是这个时候的我认为,只要有机会,我都不想放过。我指的是赚钱的机会和见识的机会。当然,自从我经济独立以来,我也一直在争取旅游的机会。

我也不是没有计划,漫无目的地储蓄;我知道自己在做什么,只是我意识到,我真的需要好好休息。原来,咳嗽是很累人的。肺部拼命地在抽蓄,整个人一直处于发烫的状态,但是没有发烧,真的很累人。

人家说小病是福,看来我是病得不合时。除了要妈妈忙着给我这个那个补品,还有担心我的饮食之外,都没有人有空让我撒娇。也许是应该3月20号过后才病的;早了!

无论如何,真的很感谢大家的关心和种种康复贴士。我会在5月份有个小休假,那个时候,希望我的旅游兼休息计划没有被打扰!

其实这个时候,我最希望一切安排妥当,那么我的电话不响,我就开心了。

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I WAS SO ANGRY!

YESTERDAY, AS I WAS REACHING BDR PUCHONG JAYA, FROM KESAS HEADING TOWARDS BDR PUTERI PUCHONG, A BIG FAT SILVER FORD RANGER, JHE 8861, SUPERBLY TINTED KNOCKED MY DEAREST CAR !

I WAS GOING STRAIGHT AND THAT CAR WAS MAKING A U-TURN UNDER THE FLYOVER. HE STOPPED WHEN HE SAW ME, BUT MAYBE HE HAD A STOMACHACHE, SO BEFORE I 'FINISHED' PASSING HIS CAR, HE 'EMERGED' ALREADY, AND KNOCKED MY DOOR AT THE PASSENGER SEAT ON THE RIGHT. AND OF COURSE, MY BUMPER ALSO CALAR.

I WAS SO SHOCKED, AND I STARTED TO DRIVE SLOW, LOOKING FOR A RIGHT SPOT FOR BOTH OF US TO PULL OUR VEHICLES OVER SOMEWHERE SUITABLE (AS THE ROAD IS SUPER BUSY, ITS WHERE THE NEWAY IS, OR THE MAIN ROAD OUTSIDE PUCHONG JAYA'S POLICE STATION). HE WAS FOLLOWING ME... SO I WAS LOOKING. THEN, THE LEFT LANE IS CLEAR WHERE WE COULD BOTH KEEP LEFT AND STOPPED. BUT SEEMED LIKE THIS PERSON WAS NOT THINKING THE SAME. HE QUICKLY CUT ME AND DASHED AWAY. AND I LITERALLY MEAN DASHED.

SO I WENT TO MY SHOOTING LOCATION TO FINISH MY COORDINATION WORK AND WENT TO LODGE A REPORT AT THE BALAI POLIS. THE OFFICER TOLD ME THAT THE CAR BELONGS TO UNCLE LEE FROM MUAR, JOHOR.

DEAR FRIENDS, IF ANYONE OF YOU SEE THIS CAR ON THE ROAD, MAKE SURE YOU CURSE THE CAR FOR HIS 'HIT&RUN' BEHAVIOR AND LEAVE THAT CAR ALONE, IN ORDER TO AVOID TO BE THE NEXT VICTIM.

NOW I AM NOT SO ANGRY, BUT MY DAD IS! *SIGH*

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Saturday, March 01, 2008

只要做到这一点,我投你一票!

大选后,一切的如火如荼后,大家忙着庆祝和休息,或者开始火辣辣地兑现对选民的承诺,却忘了一个不能被忽略、不能被忽视的事实 -

垃。圾

助选海报、小册子、小旗子等等等。即便是现在,已经是乱糟糟一片,有点像垃圾了,我相信,大选后,这些再也没有利用价值的东西就会永远留在原位。如果刚巧有掉在地上,那么清道夫先生就会扫掉,否则就会继续在那里一年半载。

所以啊,不必给我兑现什么伟大的承诺了,反正现代人也没有那么不理智地去奢望什么,民主制度又不是这两个星期上的课。反正啊,答应我你会给我清掉垃圾,我就投你一票吧。

现在像我这把年纪就热衷于投票的人,少咯,你要珍惜我的一票!

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